Symptoms of withdrawal

I've been without a computer at home for a good 50 days now. It's pretty annoying, because I tend to get bored alot without it. Procrastination is alot harder when there is nothing to do. I have to say it's gone by easier than I expected though. When my faithful old machine broke down on me (it's my harddrive which gave up service after 7 years) I thought I'd kill myself for sure if it wasn't fixed immediately. Not really the case. While I can't say that my lack of computer access has spawned a spark of creation in my mind and made me all of a sudden take advantage of all the time I used to wither away playing arbitrary computer games and surfing the internet, not having that easy access to entertainment has been sort of intriguing.

The one thing that has annoyed me more than anything though, is the lack of overview without a computer. It's like a safety-blanket. All sorts of schedules, phone numbers, dates, movie openings etc. etc. aren't readily accessible to me now which can be a fucking pain in the ass.

I'm not exactly saying I'm happy with not having a working computer at home, but I think the experience has been less grueling (even though it by no means is over *sigh*) than I had expected.

On a slightly more retarded note, I am having actual symptons of withdrawal on a regular basis now. I used to smoke alot of cigarettes back when I was young and rebellious, but quit so that I could spend money on stuff like rent instead. It wasn't too bad to quit smoking, I mean once you know the pain goes away by itself, you don't really feel it's that torturing.

However, I'm having some problems not smoking whenever I get into some drinking. No big deal because I don't smoke any whenever I'm done drinking, but it does have the side effect that every monday-tuesday-wednesday I'm going through a compressed withdrawal period, since those fucking nicotineinduced brain cells wake up every weekend now.

So I'm constantly feeling like I'm starving at the moment. I'm not sure wether or not I'm going to stop smoking when I drink... I think when I have to force myself into making a conscient decision either way, I'm letting the tobacco control a little too much. So I'm winging it at the moment, afterall pain isn't real right?